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Saturday, November 24, 2007 @ 10:10 PM

been rotting at home..
going out..
watch a couple of movies..
oh od..
i duno wad to do wif soo much time..

been lazy to update..
so here goes..
random thoughts..

im confused..
bout soo many tings..
haix..
but i'll b ok..

didnt go class chalet..
was sick for straight 4 days....
missed out on a lot of tings..
boohoo..
anywae.i cnt wait for riptches chalet..
whee!!!
gonna b total madness man..
=)

i feel like dancing now..
god!!its been a long time since i dance some moves..
=D

dats all for now..
watching hindi movies now..
bye!!!

Sunday, November 18, 2007 @ 10:07 PM



















FUN DAY OUT AT SCIENCE CENTRE!!
18.11.07
i follow my heart..
n it leads to azri..
i love u..
i reli do..

Saturday, November 17, 2007 @ 8:10 PM





16/11/07
A full day out with azri..
full of fun laughter n joy..
been a long time since i go out wif him..
glad tings are ok wif him..
i love him loads..
=)

@ 7:45 PM































RED CARPET GLAM 2007
ZHENGHUA SECONDARY SCHOOL
15.11.07


Sunday, November 11, 2007 @ 8:32 PM

was out tdae..
gah! i like one retarded person..
walking lopsided..
cause of my injury..

hmm..went to watch movie jus now..
lands of the lambs..
oh god..the movie damn boring..
i dun even understand a single ting..
but it shows abt war between us n iraq laa..
but was proud wen 2 soldiers who were stranded were faced against their enemies..
they bravely stood up n gav their best shot to destroy the enemies but was shot dead cos they were outnumbered...3 cheers for dem!! LOYALTY to their country..whee!!!

i wonder wad will happen to my life each day..

baby..i still miss u..i reli do..
im nt brave enuf to take the extra step..
i love u still..will alwaes do..
double o7,o6

Saturday, November 10, 2007 @ 6:12 PM

9th nov 2007

went out shopping wif bestie..
had loads of fun..
walk walk walk from one end to another end..
go into every shop..
bought a lot of stuffs..
bpught a dress for prom..
decide to nt wear black..
haha
crazy me..
lalala..
the worse ting wad having a bad flu while shopping..gah!!
terrible sia..

went home..
granny at home..
plus two of my cuzins..
iskandar n syawifi..
tok n tok wif dem till late at nite..
darn ting happen..
i wan off th eaircon..
no control cos duno wer..
i climb n step on a box..
didnt noe that the box was ni fully packed..
inside gt head lamp for cars..
i step n my foot went inside..
my skin tear..
now gt open wound..
i walk like duno wad..
hahaha
serves me right laa..
now down wif fever again..
n the stitch is getting painful..
gah..=(

anywae..
to all my frens..
i love u guys..
thanks..
i'll try to cheer up..
in fact i oredie did..
knowing dat u guys r alwaes there for me..
im real happy..

*smiles*

going out later..
ii cnt wait for th 13th..
last day babe!!
n im finally will b frenn from olevels..
whee!!!

Thursday, November 08, 2007 @ 1:29 PM

"what the hell happened to that. why couldn't we just settle our fights properly instead of one cursing and swearing at the other and one just in tears, dumbfounded and can't do a single thing to make things better. i thought no matter what happen, no one's supposed to walk away. no one. never allowed to walk away. because i thought we were strong enough. but i guess everything is wrong. everything i thought is all wrong. no one can really cheer me up when it comes to this matter. because i took this whole freaking relationship fucking seriously and damn, this is what happens. i mean, look at how happy we were at the beginning, look at how we were at loggerheads in the middle and look at how everything ended.and yes. truly, nothing lasts forever. don't trust that thought a single bit. i won't. definitely i won't. and yes, definitely, i would keep all the promises i made. every single promise won't be broken. even if he breaks them, i don't care really. even though i would be hurt but if he can't even give a shit about it, why should i care if he keeps his promises or not. sometimes, i just feel as if you really cannot understand me. and sometimes, i feel as if you understand me too much.oh what the heck. love's ain't got me lovestoned anymore. love is one piece of crap. to me of course. to all those couples out there, all the best of course. next time, when i get a boyfriend, don't ever wish me anything. because. i mean, just don't alright. makes my life easier and makes your life too. and till now, your words still hurt me every single day. but sometimes, when you love someone too much, you'll just be able to forgive every single mistake right? i did. but he didn't. and i couldn't understand why. things could be fixed. fights could have been stopped. all the hurt could have healed. but you chose to walk away. and i, in the end, is a complete mess. but really, you look happy now. so, i guess i should be happy because you're happy too. " from aisyah syaahindah's blog..

as i read her post..
i realise dat its almost the exact situation im in now..
girls..
tend to tink bout tings too deeply..
n ended up get doubly hurt..
by the one she loves n by herself..
haix..
i tried to b stronger..
i tried..
i jus wun giv up..
darn..i hate it..
a year plus has passed..
i cnt seem to trust guys anymre..
i tried getting over you..
gah!!

i hate tings at home..
im darn tired..exhausted..
wif my lil sis crying n irritating me..
gosh..
stop it will dey!!
i had enuf..

i jus had my operation..
no one seems to understand..
dey tink im joking..
the pain is excruciating..
but i hav to bear wif it..
my fever haven subside..
haix..
im being cooped up at home..
sometimes home feels like hell..
the constant scoldings n nagging makes me go berserk..
its driving me nuts..
stop pressurising me cn?!
I HATE IT!!!!

to aisyah:
darling..we hav to learn to let go of some tings..
be strong orite..
u r still young..
concentrate on ur studies..family..frens..
dey make ur life a better one..
not some guy..
he's nt worth it..
jodoh dah takde..
dun force orite..
let nature takes it course..
dun cry soo much..
i noe we cnt control our emotions..
but we hav to force ourselves..
never let urself be taken advantage by any guy..
if a guy reli loves u..he wun hurt u..
he will accept the real u..
u hav my back dearie...
loves..

Wednesday, November 07, 2007 @ 7:57 PM

hmm..
sometimes i would wan u to read my blog..
but i noe ur not interested..

i cn oni pray for ur safety..
hope all is well for you..
gah!
i desperately nid a break..
i nid to take time off..

been neglecting myself..
many complications especially in health aspect..

i tried to forget bout u..
i jus simply cnt..
i duno y am i still crying over you..

y r u doing dis to me?
y am i like dis?
y me?!
y cnt i forget bout u?

oh please!!
let me get dis over n done wif..
im feeling terribly sad n helpless..
haix..

current mood: exhaustion n unhappy

Friday, November 02, 2007 @ 8:52 PM



My little devil..lalala

@ 9:57 AM

you always left me clueless..
i hav to get over you..
but..one moment u sae dis..
n the next..anther ting..
my feelings fluctuated up n down..
unsure bout wad i reli wan..

im all alone..
pushed away n being blame for tings i did nth wrong..

my heart beats fast wenever i meet u..
i cnt help smiling n admiring u everytime we r tgether..
i cnt bear to c u hurt or hear u cry..
im willing to sacrifice everyting for u..

im stubborn i noe..
i cnt help it..
i seem to cnt let u go..
but i hav to..
i dun belong in ur life anymre..
u'll b ok without me..

i wonder where u r..wad r u doing..
hav u eaten?r u ok?
perfectly fine?

i dunmind getting hurt in any way jus as long as ur happy..

stop it aishah..
tink bout urself..
but..
haish..
its ok laa..

Thursday, November 01, 2007 @ 9:59 PM

i cant get u out of my mind!!!

its hard but i noe smeday i will get over you..
i miss u..
terribly..

5 mre papers!!
go for it aishah!!
=)