me,myself&i

Aishah Kamsani
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Ngee Ann Polytechnic; ECH
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Saturday, May 31, 2008 @ 11:51 PM

chocolates r my daily doses of happiness..
jus came back from shopping wif sis..
met up bestie from her work..
n she bought for me chocs from her shop..
the SINS..
omg..their chocs r simply the best cn!!
heavenly n rich yet light..
yum yum..
i love everyting dat bestie chose for me..
i go crazy over chocs!!
im superly insane man...
=) =)
ok i hav to control my choc intake..
if nt die im gonna gain a lot of weight..
wic is a no no..
hahaha..

bought donuts from donut factory n i aint eating it..
i guess too full..
mayb in a while..

dis saturday aishah ate a lot..
from cheesecake to crackers to hotdog to donuts to chocs!!
n she ony ate one proper meal..
dis is wad i call my daily food..
=) =)

gss sale is oredie on..
as i walk ard suntec jus now..
it was super tempting..
ohmy..
i gt to control..
=D

love my frens!!
love my family!!
love myself!!

@ 11:18 AM

Bestie and me

yours truly

1A02

My precious frens

I had a great time wif my mcc frens yest watching tpjc production..

even though there were some not so good comments..

well a good job for all of dem..=)

i feel so unappreciated..

not a word of thanks..

disappointing..

u showed me sth..

a "gd" fren indeed..

i gav up on u..

Thursday, May 29, 2008 @ 11:56 PM

ROLLERCOASTER RIDE..
i am tired..exhausted..
pull me out of my misery..
how long cn i hold on..

Wednesday, May 28, 2008 @ 11:32 PM

my 2 partners hu noes me inside out..

i love u guys..

woke up late..rushed to sch..

after 5 days of nt waking up late..i tink dis is the result lah..

after school did library search..

n yay! elearning assignments done!!

nid to jus zap,photocopy,print n compile..

after dat..

cn reli study n focus on cdev test next monday..

next sat have ppcm test..

hope it will nt b too tough..

=) insyaallah..

also due date next week for assignment for play nmotor skills..

i cnt wait for term break..

=) =)

met up wif bestie n my 3 boys after dat..

we tok n tok n tok..laugh laugh laugh..

fara..zabib..rusyad..haron..

thx for making my day!!

head home n was greeted by my 3 cuzins n lil sis..

played wif dem a while..

off to read thru chapter 2 of play..

tmrrow gt quiz..

hahaha..

take care ppl..

*hugs*

@ 12:52 AM

i stupidly fall for ur words again..
AISHAH STOP LOOKING BACK!!!!

heartbreaking..
stop stop stop..
pls...
i beg u!!
=(

Tuesday, May 27, 2008 @ 1:58 PM

jus came back from attachment..
before i forget..
i tink i shud pen down my thoughts here first..

kids= awesome!!
love dem love dem love dem..
i observed the k1s n k2s in the early part of morning..
hearing dem call "teacher aishah!" jus puts a smile on my face..
their conversations wif each other and wif me are all so adorable..
i duno how to describe the feeling man..
ever so full of stories dat makes me laugh..smile so wide..
a bunch of intelligent n smart kids..=D
they noe abt the natural disasters that has hit many countries n sympathise wif the ppl there..aww..
even their simple bye-bye is so adorable cn!!
lunch time i help out wif the palygrp..
cute oso..
love love dem..
a bit playful..
intelligent too..independent..
nursery kids..(the class i normally take)
oh man..
i simply simply adore dem..
their innocence..
wanting attention..
form of communications..
its jus pure bliss to b wif dem..

dats all for today's attachment..
even though im observing..
i had lots lots fun..
dey make me skip n grin from ear to ear..
dey simply made my day..
thank you my little angels!!
*hugs*

Monday, May 26, 2008 @ 10:12 PM

today was GREAT!!
i had so much fun..
=)

my daily doses of chocs kip me alive!!
*big big smile*
on top of dat..
starbucks made my day..

i hope the kids tomorrow will giv me a pleasant day..
=)
not like last week wer i gt bullied..
kids trampling over me..
on top of me..
accidentally hit me wen they stand n falls back on me..
kids kids kids..
pure bliss..

home is so noisy..
haha..wif my cuzzies plus siblings..
total chaos..

books..books..books..
so much choice..
but do i hav the time to read??
wen im free perhaps..

i miss sch..
like wth..am i out of my mind..
i tink i shud put it right..
i miss the company in sch..=)
love love my frens alot..
u guys jus spice up my life..

take one step at a time..
there's no nid to rush..
its like learning to fly..
or falling in love..

loves!!

Sunday, May 25, 2008 @ 8:23 PM

hey ho..
=)
full of smiles here..

had a family gathering at aunts place..
its been soo long since i met everyone..
chat n hang out wif cuzzies..
had a blast..
laugh till my stomach hurts..
intruding each other's hp..
non-stop teasings..
planning of wen to go out..
a wonderful time indeed..
dey make my day..
all my nieces r sure growing up fast..
=) =)

now im back home..
my 3 powerpuff girls are here..
sleeping over at my house for the week as its sch hols..
aunt n uncle has to work..
so yea..my house is gonna b hell lot noisier..
but well..
having these kids around will definitely brighten up my life abit..
=D

projects nt yet done..
gonna read chapter 6 n 7 so cn do the online quizzes..
once i've done dat..a big load off my mind..
so aishah..deadline for u to complete that..by mon nite..
=)
library search deadline..by wed nite..
play assignment..hmm i still duno wad to do wif all the records i made..
haha..

so overall..how was my day today??
it was orite..
enjoying..fun..
=D =D
cnt wait for this coming week..

take care people..
lots of hugs n kisses from yours truly..
muacks!!

Saturday, May 24, 2008 @ 9:12 PM

do u have the heart to let go of me??
11/18/2006 1:00 pm
dat particular question set me thinking now..
u asked me dat..n my reply was
i dun hav the heart to do dat...
i reli reli love you
u replied back..
i love u too dear..i reli do..i've nvr loved a girl like i love u b4, baby...
but after a year..
everyting changed..
those words..meant nothing at all..
i promised myself never to hold on to my past anymre..
but it seems dat im breaking dis promise over and over again..
im moving on..dats for sure..
but i kip looking back..
having thoughts like what if? if only..
haix..
the guy hu was there for me for everyting..
wen i was sick..wen i was in hospital..wen i was having dental checkups..
wen i was away for a day and u wun stop worrying..
wen i go for camps,ur afraid im gonna leave u..
now we jus merely exchange hi-s in msn..
its like as if i dun noe u at all..
reli saddening..

time will heal me..
but i noe those memories will b forever etched in my heart..

well enuf bout that..
i sit back and tink of all the tings i hav went thru..
every little actions i do hav its consequences..
health wise..
its funny wen i tink back..
i went thru gum operation..root canal treatment..(after eating toomuch of chocs and ice cream wen too stress)
drip..(dehydration)countless injections..(checkups n all)countless doses of medicine..(sick)
gastrics..(no proper diet)stomach cramps dat simply will make me pass out..(period)
i am a weak person..
i mus do sth man..
haha..
i do exercise..i tink i nid to balance everyting out..
kip a healthy lifestyle aishah..=)

studies..
ohk im clueless bout my play assignment..
i hav recorded from the videos..n what's next??
i bet most of my clasmates felt the same way too..
tests r cming..
quizzes to b done..
library search to b done too..
field pract observation to b done..
woah..its tying me down..
n its jus the first semester..

friends..
i miss dem loads..
i duno how long since i see dem..
everyone too busy..
haix..
now i miss mys ec sch days again..=(

family..
ever so noisy..
well jus tahan lah..
i cnt b bothered smetimes..
i'll jus do my own stuff..

my emotional state..
i still cnt accept and believe everyting that has happen to me..
n after dat..u left me..
=(
its real heartbreaking..
y mus u do dat!!

its all in a mess..
my life..
hasnt fall into place..
insyaallah..
things will get better each day..

happy birthday to fana!!(23rd may)
happy birthday to diana!!(24th may)
=)
oh man..gonna b a week until i see my clasmates again..
wic means giving pressies oso belated..
1A02 ECH the best..

toodles!!

Friday, May 23, 2008 @ 11:42 PM

i may hav cool-ed down a bit..
but im still very very pissed wif tings at home..
urgh! urgh! urgh!
its tearing me apart..
n i am seriously on the verge of giving up and not caring bout wad happens at home anymre..
wadeva lah..i dun wish to tok bout it..

reality=a place wer u wun wana b in..
i dicovered so much about adult life..
n it feared me soo much..
betrayal..divorce..affairs..having other wives out there..
bad mouthing..backstabbing..
its so much far worse out there..
i feel sad but at the same time angry..
im nt contradicting men here..
but so far i heard so many stories bout men..
cheating on each other..
if at dis present moment there oredie is dis kind of ppl out there..
wad bout the future??
now im afraid..
insyaallah..allah will protect me..

visited my cuzzie in hospital..
with the hot weather now..
pls ppl..remember to eat n drink a lot of water..
keep urself hydrated..
=D

for the first time in soo long i watch the news today..
so saddening..
earthquakes..cyclones..
natural disasters cant b avoided..
but its taking so many lives..
=(
i hope to do mre den donating..
but given my age n status..
i dun tink i am able to render my service to those victims out there..
its orite..
i'll jus pray for everyone's safety..

i guess dats all on my mind..
cramps come and go..
shit! its killing me..

mood swings..outburst of temper..annoyed..
oh man..
i feel lousy..

Thursday, May 22, 2008 @ 9:52 PM

woke up feeling so hot and warm..
realised dat the fan was not facing me but elsewhere..
n the sun is up shining thru my windows..
dragged myself out of bed..
prepared for school..

met up wif classmates..=)
it feels like so duno how long since i saw dem..
haha..
had tutorials..
during play..
half the class oredie dead..
falling asleep..
hot weather..inside aircon..lights switch off..
wad do u expect??
ended up half-lying down on the floor and playing wif the paintbrushes inside the classroom..
i love my play classroom so much..
it relives my pre-school days..
wif small chairs and tables..
easel boards and paints..
crayons..
toys..
=) =) =)
enuf bout school i guess..

met bestie and she's an hour late!!
hahaha..im not mad at her..
noe her for 13 years..wad do u expect..
met up wif akmal n fren..
had early dinner..
walk around bugis area..
took mrt home..
tok alot..

to fara:
baby..ur a very strong gurl u noe..
it is ok if u wan to kip sme tings from me..
but remember..if u ever nid someone to cry to, a listening ear..
i'll alwaes b there for u..
ur like my other half..
wen ur sad..im sad..
wen ur happy..im happy too..
n u realise by now..wadeva happens to u most likely happens to me too..
remember the time wen ur in the hospital cos of appendix operation..i end up in hospital too cos of dehydration??haha.. sme mre we were a few beds away..
we hav gone thru alot..
u nid someone to fall back on..i'll b there..
as alwaes..
feel stressed up at home?
come over to my place..
n we cn hav sleepover..
chatting the whole nite and basically crap as much as we can..
i love u baby..
i love u soo much..
dis sounds rong but well hu cares..
haha..
take care of urself ok..
go c doctor again if sick..
=) =)

i smile and u smile..
wad a funny game tis is..=D
*big big smile*
loves..

Wednesday, May 21, 2008 @ 11:44 PM

20.05.08
attachment was fun..
halfway i join the playgroup class..
n boy were they very active..
running around..climbing all over me..
alwaes seeking my attention..
cute!

went for tarian after dat..
was fun...
learn a dance routine..
haha.. n i take a long time to grasp it..
its new to me..
i shud work on my hand n leg coordination..
n posture too..
den watch the practice for dinamis production..
im sure the show gonna b great..
=)
good luck seniors yea!!
i'll b there supporting u guys!

tuesday was a forgetful day for me..
cos i forgot almost everyting bout my schedule and wad i am suppose to do next..
i even thought on wed i hav to wake up early go school..haha

21.05.08
met syairah, jamie at canteen 1 to do projects..
kerin came along and head to library..
complete our flip chart project and had some time chit-chatting wif each other..haha
had a blast..
met adee and li..
went to clementi..
funny ting is..i dun reli go clementi dat area..
so going there is like woah! how come i never see dis here before..
like some tourist like dat..
haha..silly me..
even the bus i took seems very nt-the-usual ting for me..
had mcc dianamis meeting for freshie..
watch lala bahas..
n went home..
now im here blogging even though im suppose to study for quiz tomorrow..
hahaha..
till next time yea..
=)

gd nite ppl!
take care
loves

Monday, May 19, 2008 @ 9:32 PM

TIME TO WAKE UP AISHAH
its a BIG BIG mistake..
nt worth my time and attention..
i aint no toy u can play around wif..
look for me wen ur in trouble..
fools around wen ur happy..
for gods sake..
im ur fren..
frens dun abandon each other wen u dun nid me..
i am so foolish..
n dis gotta stop..
dun worry..i wun take revenge..
im not dat lowdown like u..
making my lfie miserable and hate seeing me happy..
thx for the good times u gav me..
but i guess the bad times overlaps all of the good ones..
i found no mre reason to defend u..
i duntink i cn trust u anymre..
goodbye..

we r still frens..
but i tink it will stop at mere frens ony..nt mre den dat..

had a very nice day at home..
resting the whole day..
i feel energised now..
oh man im so gonna hav trouble sleeping tonite..
haha
its ok lah..
do my elearning stuff..
even though its way too early..haha
=)
tomorrow i hav attachment..
yay!
children! pure bliss..
=) =D
till next time..
loves

@ 12:15 PM

Overnight camping wif family members at pasir ris park..

it was nice..

jus dat i was bored as i hav no one to chat or play wif..

im like the ony teen dere..

haha..

great family bonding time..

Sunday, May 18, 2008 @ 5:24 PM

me wif my dates!!

17.05.08

i had so much fun..

mre pics wif az..

ayat-ayat cinta is pure love!

shud shud watch it ppl..

touching!

Friday, May 16, 2008 @ 11:32 PM

drama is again super super fun..=)
dere's too much tings to tok about..
much much laughters and joy shared among us..
im so glad to b part of the mcc family..
it felt so good to b able to meet up and enjoy the company of ur frens at the end of a hectic week..

i realise i hav been blogging like every day sia..
oh man..
i gt to stop..
i get distracted once i use the lappy..
n i wun slp till 1 plus in the mrning..
n i woke up feeling so sleepy..

tmrrow gt dates wif my mcc frens..
oh man..i cnt wait..
finally i get to watch the show i hav been wanting to watch..
ayat-ayat cinta..

things to do: -dennis running record..
-photocopying for reference file..
-field practicum observation again..(remember to fill the blank pages!)
-ppcm?hmm i nt so sure..
-pmdvs?i nt too sure too..
-get enuf rest..

=)
i guess dats all for now..
tata ppl!!
loves

Thursday, May 15, 2008 @ 10:29 PM

i miss dis guy..

like reli much..

from frens to best frens to special frens

back to jus frens ony..

ppl change..

i believe i change too..

jus dat this guy whom i used to spend most of my time wif..

he's now gone..

long gone..

it upsets me terribly..

trying to forget him..

but well..

only time cn help me ease the pain..

ur innocence..

ur playfulness..

ur laughter..

ur smile..

its all gone..

oh god!!

i hate dis..

aishah u hav to stop..

u hav to..

stop! stop! stop!

tdae has been indeed a long day for me again...

play lecture was fun..

cdev was fun too..

donation drive was meaningful n definitely enjoyable even though under the hot sun..

hanging out wif bestie(fara) has made my day..

love love her..baby..i duno wad i'll do without u..

ok dis sound rong..

but well she's like my sister..

13 yrs of friendship n still counting..

loves!!

i saw u..

i had the urge to run n hold u in my arms..

but i refrain..

i smiled..but at the same time i feel wrong..

like as if im betraying myself..

saying one thing n doing another ting..

shit..

looking forward to drama tmrrow..

my frens..

the company i hav..

a must hav to complete my life..

tc ppl!!

Wednesday, May 14, 2008 @ 7:43 PM

thx to kerin for dis!!

a long day indeed..

woke up early to go sch..

n for the first time it was raining..

like finally!

but its pouring so heavily..

n dis isnt good..

dere's like these small little insects flying aroud..

scares the hell out of me n my classmates..

made our way to class..

the lecturer very cute..=)

very cheerful n bubbly..

full of smiles..

had lunch wif classmates

after lunch..
we were discussing bout wad hapens if a group of guys/a group of girls wud b doing if dey r sitting wif each other jus eating lunch or jus hanging out..haha..n trust me its almost the same ting dats happening whether its boys or girls..hahaha..

den go to library n jus relax..

trying to study but end up blog shopping, playing lappy, tok tok n laugh laugh..

bus-ed home..

n went to take a very long nap..

woke up wash up eat dinner wif family...

meeting bestie in a while..

i guess dats all for tdae..

loves!!

the more i learn bout child development n stuff..

the mre afraid n doubtful i get..

oh man.

but aishah never gics up!!

Tuesday, May 13, 2008 @ 11:35 PM

today was such a beautiful day n indeed it was better den yesterday..=)
had so much fun..=D

first n foremost my attachment..
oh god..i simply love the kids there..
they brg joy to my life..
adorable..cute..
life is simple for dem..
dats wad i envy them for the most..
their squabbles, laughter, cries..
its like music to my ears man..
i received lots of hugs n kisses from dem..
dey r so loving..
thx little angels..
u guys simply made my day..
=D

met amalina at 6pm..
its her bdae ppl!!
love her lots..
gav her pressies..
too bad kerin cnt make it..
but its orite..
kerin if ur reading dis..
go n rest ok..
until u recover fully, ur not suppose to go out too much ok..
drink lots of water darling..
back to amalina..
she hug me..
we said our goodbyes n off i go to my cca..
tarian aka xpdtari..
received a text from amalina later..saying she like the pressies me n kerin bought for her..
glad u love it babe!!
=D
lunch or dinner or movie dates soon yea babes??
looking forward to dat..

ok i sidetracked alot..
back to tarian..
did some free expression movement session..
was fun..
=)
den went up to watch performance for DINAMIS..
den went down again..
learn sme basic dances..
had laughters here n there..
very fun..
seriously i dun regret one bit joining the mcc family..
i reli enjoyed myself..
=D =)

overall i had fun tdae!!
=)

and and i'll b doing sme charity thing dis thurs or fri..
for the outbreak of disasters in myanmar..
its like flag day..
donation drive like dat..
so ppl..
do support HMS, me n my classmates yea to raise funds..
most importantly help these ppl..
u'll b doing a good deed..=)

dats all for now i guess..
loves

Labels: never look back..kip moving forward..

Monday, May 12, 2008 @ 8:55 PM

jus came home..
tdae was better den yesterdae..
n i noe tomorrow will b better den tdae..
=)

went sch in the mrning..
had lecture..
feeling ever so tensed up cos my first project is cming..
haha..
den take a cab down to town wif amalina n kerin...
catch up session!!
love dem..
den shop shop..
n bus-ed home..

rest awhile..
head out to bpp after dinner..
den now at home..
chatting..
listen to songs..
finish wrapping..
finish deciding..
n here i am..
excited for tmrrow.
haha
kids!! babies!!
oh man..dey simply brg joy to my life..
love dem!!

i tink dats all for now..
=)
i found myself smiling everytime...
haha..continue for me yea..=D
loves..

Sunday, May 11, 2008 @ 11:30 PM

a boring weekend indeed...
no plans..
stuck at home..

i seem to b a strong girl now..
but im more vulnerable now den before..
i hope the strength within me is able to withstand wad im gonna face from now on..
im deceiving myself..
but i guess dats the best ting to do now..

is avoiding everyone the solution to ur problems..
im being selfish here..
u cn avoid everyone..but y r u avoiding me??
i want to confront n slap u in the face..
but wen i see u,i hear u..
every single drop of hate,revenge disappears..

adults alwaes sae relationships at my age is jus infatuation..
but y is infatuation making me feel so terrible?
y is infatuation hurting me so much dat i felt as though my heart has been ripped apart?
i wanna stay away from all these negative emotions..
wen will it b?the time wer i cn b the bubbly n cheerful me again..
filled wif happiness n no mre sadness..

my blog so emo lah..
but i cnt help it..
i feel better only after blogging..

i hope things will change..
=)
loves

Saturday, May 10, 2008 @ 11:31 PM

today i feel so empty..
i duno wads going thru inside my head..
terrible feeling..
woke up quite late at aunt home..
haha..too tired i guess..
had flu..ate breakfast..
take medicine..slp again..
woke up eat again..
watch tv..
follow cuzzie to mcdonalds..
go back n rest..
eat again..
omg its so boring today..

the fun part is to b wif my cuzzin,aunts,uncles,niece,nephews and granny..
love dem to bits n pieces..
=)
aida i miss u..farisa i miss u..
cuzins outing soon ok..
=)=)=)

should i hate u??
i cnt..no matter how much i tried..
after everyting u decide to stay away n keep mum..
wth..wtf..
leaving me clueless..
expect me to guess..
i have no time for all this..
urgh!! pissing me off..
y isit u? y must it b u??
pointless for me to get angry..

anther day tmrrow..
i gt no plans..
parents going to malacca..
while im stuck at home..
mayb go out wif bestie..
depends lah on my mood..
if not jus stay at home..
n eat sleep..
boring weekend..=(

looking forward to wattchign ayat-ayat cinta wif mcc peeps!!
loves

Friday, May 09, 2008 @ 11:00 PM

im now at tampines baybeh..
so long never meet my aunt,uncle cuzzies n my niece n nephews..
granny is here too..
=)
love it man..

ayat-ayat cinta is out oredie..weehee..
im so gonna watch it..
anyone wanna watch wif me??
giv me a call or text yea..
a must watch show ppl..
go watch it!!

had mcc drama jus now..
super fun..
laugh alot..
further strengthen the bond between freshies and seniors..
drama is fun!!
i sound like i wan to do publicity like dat..
ahha..
anywae if u guys out there gt no cca..
join mcc..
even imran saes its so fun..=)

i guess dats all for now..
gd bye n gdnite!!

Thursday, May 08, 2008 @ 8:54 PM

i had a long day tdae..
went to sch wif him..
wadeva happens is between us..
my heart races again..
i dunlike this feeling..
its gonna make me all confused again..

went to class..
had lots of laughter n fun..
straight went home after dat..
=) gd girl..

received a call..
omg..i feel like i've been used..
but well its all my fault..
i hate it wen its done u jus walk away from me..
leaving me clueless..
i fel like crying all over again..
y?y?y?
r u so afraid to tell ppl bout me?
cos u've been telling ppl u no longer had any contact wif me?
or ur ashamed?
=(
ur embrace..makes me feel secured once again..
but am i gonna trust u all over again jus cos of dat?

wen u look me in the eyes..
i was speechless..
n i noe rite there n den..
i still love you..
omg!! tis is torturing me..
i cnnt b a crybaby..
b strong aishah..
no mre crying pls..
sooner or later i'll look horrible..

both david is still in american idol..
how cool is dat..
i like the younger david..
david A..
handsome..haha
=)
but i still tink chris brown super hot..
=D

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