me,myself&i

Aishah Kamsani
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Ngee Ann Polytechnic; ECH
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Monday, June 30, 2008 @ 8:51 PM

sunday was spend at work..

monday lesson was orite..
was suffering thru out karuna's lecture..
wif the irritating flu..
4 packets of tissue used up..
my god..
for an hour plus..

went to have lunch n to work..
jus an hour plus after i clock in for work..
i went home..
fever and heavy flu..
i look terrible..
slept till 8 plus..

i guess tmrrow i cnt go childcare..
hav to make up for it..
now i hav to find time slot..gah!!
my week is oredie full dis week..
nvm..i'll slot in sme time n hope my mentor agrees..

with the weather so hot..
n im sick..
cn things get any worse?
i hope it doesnt..

tc ppl for now..
=)

Saturday, June 28, 2008 @ 9:49 PM

awaiting for the bus

republic poly theatre
aishah.aisyah.annisa

my twin

her.me

27.06.08

went to fajar sec symphony band's concert..esperanza 3..at republic poly

kinda cool laa the band..

better den sme schs..

a gd time to destress..

(almost everyone there i dun even noe..was jus accompanying my 2 lil sisters)

i met shafiqah..

missed her..

its been a long time since i met the rest of my sec sch mates..my malay classmates..

28.06.08

woke up super early to go work..

i reach super early..

so yea decide to jus go in laa..

i dun care laa..reach oredie wad..

work was orite..

went off at 3pm..

went home straight..

before dat made a quick stop at mcdonalds..

ok i hav to watch my diet..

i hav been eating way too much fastfood, fried food..

i dun mind ice cream n chocs though..

haha

been resting alot tdae..

wic is like finally..

im so shagged from everyting..

@ 12:21 AM

sch tdae was orite..
hang out wif classmates was awesome..

i love dem..

field practicum assignment 1 done

cdev report done

play assignment 1 done

upcoming projects..

micro teaching

field pract assignment 2

ppcm

test test n mre test

exams r in august..

2 papers ony..

a relieve for me..

n sme mre..

winnie for ppcm is so cute n she's very nice

she'll giv us clues n hints bout our exam..

i hope cdev wun b a killer paper..

thx zabib and farah..

i owe a lot to u guys..

im so much in love wif u two..

so yea..

tell me y do i nid a bf?

haha

after getting my eyes swollen..

farah giv me very very encouraging words..

zabib accompany me..tok to me..

n made me laugh..

thx thx thx..

he has hurt me terribly tdae..

but it aint gonna stop me from living my life happily..
bye monster.

u wun hear from me much..

dats all i guess for now..

Thursday, June 26, 2008 @ 10:36 PM

jus as i expected..
u turn down dis sat..
im utterly disappointed..

ur plans = excuses
i ony ask to mit after 3pm..
u had the whole afternoon before 3 or slightly after 3 to do ur things..
in the first place..
dun promise me..
not the first time..
n dis will never be the last..
i cn never trust u again..

ur holding me back from starting anew..
i did my part..
n now isit my fault again??
ur jus torturing me..
more n more each day..
n u dun even noe..

wen i receive ur text..
i duno how to describe the feeling..

i cnt take dis anymre..
im gonna walk away from u..
i'll b sad n stuff..
but its gonna b awhile..
i noe im strong..

sch tdae was ok..
completed my field practicum assignment..
n cdev left with editing..
after dat..
2 big loads off my mind..
left wif micro teaching n pcm grp assignment..

"tau lah.but cnt be helped.at least tk last min.sori.Im glad im nt in relationship"
i hav to stop pretending.
see for urself aishah.
how much he has changed.
not for the better but for the worse.
hostile.rude.n self-centered jerk.

bye ppl..
take care..

Wednesday, June 25, 2008 @ 11:45 PM

daily updates..
not tdae i guess..
im too tired n worn out..

as i look at the mirror..
the image i see..
isnt the person i was a few years back..
i couldnt recognise myself..
ppl change..
for the better or for the worse..

im stronger..
mre patient..
mre accepting..

it haunts me..
its scaring me..
it jus makes me full of regret..
i shudnt hav done dat..
=(

Tuesday, June 24, 2008 @ 7:00 PM

my 3 hours spent in childcare centre was pure bliss!!
i so love the kids there..
i was greeted by the k1 kids again..
gd mrning teacher aishah!!
omg! immediately i broke out wif a big grin and smile so wide..
one of dema sked..
"teacher aishah,r u going to teach us today?"
haha..
i was in my mind..
i dunhav the knowledge to teach u guys laa..im not fully trained..
=)
did a running record on the 5 yr olds..n 6 yr olds..
the 5 yr olds went for cookery class..
it was so funny..
all so eager n ready to make sth..
"wen r we going to make pizza?"
"the new oven is upstairs.why never bring down?"
"put it in the oven??"
haha//
seems like dey r so fascinated by the oven..

went up to observe the k2s..
anther 20 mins of running record..
tough work u noe..
den its time for me to do anther running record on the 2 yr olds..
dey were the super active n hilarious bunch..
the playgroup..
halfway thru the running record,the teacher suggested multimedia..
all ran outside of the classroom n sit down..
automatic laa..so cute..
the nursery group soon join us..
sang songs wif dem..
listen to storys..
it was so much fun..
the kids surround u..
asking u so many questions..
each n everyone wanting ur attention..
their "bestfriend" conversation still continues..
lunch came..
dey all went down to eat..the nursery group..i followed dem..
one gurl ask..
"do u like me?"
i jus smiled n said yes i like u..
den she continue eating..
children need assurance smetimes..
=)
bath time came..
n i palyed wif dis little gurl..
had a hard time coaxing her to eat..
play play..
n time for me to go..
dats all for my visit there tdae..
i've grown attached to dem..
i dunwan fp to end!!
my little angels..
i so love dem..

went home n lunch-ed outside wif mum n lil sis..
bought some snacks n energy bars..
back to home..
n slept..
later i hav to do my fp reflection..finish it up..
touch up my grp cdev project..
n i'll b done for the day..

im pretty sure dis time..
im gonna sae my piece this time..
im afraid if ur gonna..
walk away or do sth to me..
its ok aishah..
toughen up..
i hav to get tis done n over wif..

im putting on a very thick mask in frt of u..
i jus dnwan u to find out wad r my thoughts n stuff..
but i guess very soon..i hav to open this mask..
n reveal my true feelings..my true self..

@ 12:12 AM

meeting my classmates was a joy..
had lunch wif kerin n amalina at pizza hut was yummy..
sorry girls..again i had to leave first..
n i was late for work..by a few mins..hahaha
lucky my boss nt ard..
=)

work was fun and crazy today..
ailena,ting ting,shu na and li chan..
the 5 of us laughed non-stop for the whole day..
towards evening time..
me n ailena n li chan discussed abt roses..how each number means..
it was so hilarious..
999 roses meant eternal love..
woah..
101 roses oredie the bouquet very big..bigger den wad i cnhold..
imagine 999 roses..
its like the size of a small round dining table or bigger..dat huge..
haha..

gerberas are so so pretty..
im like so in love wif dem..
=) =D

tmrrow meet up wif kids..
im so excited!!!

Monday, June 23, 2008 @ 12:29 AM

u came n i appreciated dat..
thanks for everyting..
the bottle n the food..
=)

i dunwan to b back wif u again..
i jus nid to see u..
hug me..
hold me for one last time..
i'll sae my piece..
n the end..

im afraid..
but i hav to get dis over n done wif soon..
i cnt take it anymre..
its hurting me alot alot alot..
i feel so so so terrible..

work was crazy jus now..
so busy..
as i listen to the songs played by taka..
haha..(their songs cn b wacky smetimes=p)
i recalled those moments..
haix..
im afraid of dat day..
its cming..
getting nearer n nearer..
i duno if i cn hold on..
i dunwan to jus break down dat day..

dad is overseas..
n i didnt get to sae my goodbye to him..
=(
may u b safe ayah..
i'll wait for ur return..
(everytime my dad goes away..i'll cry..padehal pasal he hav work overseas)
im a crybaby..i noe..
haha

knowing from other ppl bout wad u do..
dissapoints me alot..
y hav u change?
y r u so bad?
y hav u become worse?
u seem so desperate for love..
i pity u..
at the same time i cnt stop loving u..

i noe ur using me again dis time round..
y m i still so stubborn..
smetimes i do hate myself..
i reli do..
haix..

bye ppl..
tc!

Sunday, June 22, 2008 @ 12:31 AM

im in deep trouble..
i feel terrible..
i wan u back..
i miss u alot..
so badly that it hurts..
i hate u..
i hate u..
i hate u..
but my heart doesnt saes i hate u..
it stills aes i love you..

to go thru everyday..
pretending everyting's orite..
is a burden to me..
my fren sae..
take time off to self-reflect..
do tings thatt will help u forget certain tings..
wen i hav the time..i will do dat..
dis i promise myself..
its time for me to jus take a break..
let it all out..

bye ppl..

Saturday, June 21, 2008 @ 11:54 PM

liyana.aishah.ika.nadiyah

aishah
mkn pun sempat amek

ape saje kite uat..

malay dancers

6 stranded pompuan melayu

i adjusting my sarong..haha

aishah.hairil (my face look so white)

i look as if i dun hav hands..

performance at convention centre
for nigel n friends charity show by ICS(ngee ann)

same pri sch..now same poly

kak sheila.kak hajar.azlin.ika.nadiyah.aishah.hairil.liyana

greenridge primary lah..=)

perut dah kenyang so amek gambar lagi!

my first performance at ngee ann poly..

mistakes made..

but we learn n i get a feel how its like performing on stage after soo long..

i discovered dat my passion for dance has never been wiped out from my life..

tiring day..

but well..

all was worth it..

tmrrow gt work..

after dat..

meet up wif bestie..

i miss her..

@ 12:46 AM

aishah

carpark oso cn

departure

funny shot..

aishah.aida

he jus enjoys being in the middle

kak norlin n me

its changi airport

aishah.iskandar.aniq.syakir.nishrina

cuzzies

meddling with a public phone

annisa.aida.aishah.amy.iskandar

amalina.annisa.amy.aishah

Ariq aiden

me.iskandar

love dem
terminal 3

i was bored

nur nishrina.me

aniq irfan.me (handsome boy)

boys.adlina

dorang-dorang yg tak tau malu

jus came back from the airport after sending off my niece,nephews and cuz to austrailia..

im gonna miss dem..

tears stream down all of our family members faces as we bid our goodbyes to dem..

i love u my niece..nur nishrina..

n not to forget the 2 handsome boys..

aniq irfan and ariq aiden..

kak norlin n family..

may u hav a safe trip to australia..

insyaallah..

we will mit soon..

take care..

bon voyage..

dey wun b cming back to singapore for a few years..

dis time round..its the most saddest departure for all of us..

im glad i came..

meet up wif cuzzies were best..

love love dem..

we took so many pictures within a few hours..

now u noe how crazy my cuzzies n i were wen we mit..

we even sang a happy birthday song in the middle of terminal 3..

happy 15th bdae dearest shawifi!!

may all ur wishes come true..

gd nite ppl..

its 1 plus in the mrning..

time for me to hit the bed..

Friday, June 20, 2008 @ 2:11 PM

not letting ourself to b loved cos we r too afraid of giving ourself to someone we might lose..

am i dat afraid??

that sentence makes sense..

it happens too many times..

too many times..

i found myself being in a position wer im alwaes in a loss..

n do not noe wad to do..

i'll jus let tings be..

n alhamdulilah most of the time i'll find my way out..

with the guidance from Him..

before it's too late..
i shud not take tings for granted..

but y do i alwaes forget bout tings..

forgetting all those little moments dat contributes greatly to my life..

i tend to ony focus on things that at the end of the day left me tinking..

"y did i do dat? y did i waste my time on dis?"

i forgot..completely bout..

how to improve myself to b a better woman..

a better person..

how to appreciate the tings i hav in life..

everyone is wearing a mask..

no one exactly noes wad the other person is tinking,going thru..

a special someone will b able to free urself from all these miseries..

wic will be ur life partner..

ur other half..

never to forget..

there is one hu noes mre den u do bout urself..

n dats Him..

wen anyone hugs me..

i feel protected..

i feel secured..

i feel great..

i feel being loved..

i feel appreciated..

(im sure most of us feel dis way too)

so y not..

make it a point to hug ur frens wen u c dem..

it does help to de-stress us abit..

hugs r the best medicine to cure any negative emotions we hav at that moment..

dun u agree ppl??

it came earlier den expected..

n now im experiencing pain pain pain..

gah!!

@ 1:10 AM

my running record of Su Fern is like done done done..
editing n stuff..
all done..
the grp one near finish..
by tdae.. 20.06.08
im so happy..
one assignment down..
2 mre to go..
oso by tdae..gonna finish my field practicum..
die die mus finish..
i dun care..
a few mre days till start of new term..
i miss classmates..
i miss my funny lecturers..
hahaha..
i miss frens frens frens..

reminder: grp discussion for micro teaching..
MUST MUST REMEMBER DIS!

i feel relieved..
im getting the hang of it..
the assignments n poly life..
nervous of wad the future holds for me..
at the same time excited..
=)

mayb mre drama in aishah's life??

i tink one of dese days its time to read my archives..
n jus laugh my ass off..
dis is the reason y i blog..

orite den..
i wan to slp..
rest my body..
n wake up mayb late? (like finally)
sayonara ppl..
arigato..
for reading dis post..

oh oh..
i still am in love wif hi 5..
rite syairah??
hahaha

Thursday, June 19, 2008 @ 9:15 PM

woke up bright n early n head to sch library to do my cdev project..
met up wif jamie,syairah n kerin..
book a room..
while waiting for 10am(wen we officially cn use the room)
we sat at the internet cafe munching n drinking..
quite a topic jus now..
celebrities n gossips...
bout ellen..oprah..tyra banks..wif their shows..
the subject took a turn wen we were inside the room..
bout guys hu take pictures of themselves way way too much..
(goosebumps)
we faithfully do our project for an hour plus..
den we sidetracked to solve this email tingy..
hahaha..
jamie n kerin had lots of fun..
me n syairah jus laugh along n try to get their attention back..hahaha
we get stressed a bit rite wif the email for a moment..
laughing is the best cure to ease ourselves n not b so "kan-chiong"
met up wif my tarian members..
practice abit at the convention centre stage n off to rent baju..
head back home..
ate my lunch(mcdonalds!!yum!!)
off to bestie house..
crap n tok..
gave her moral support while she clean her wardrobe..
(sorry lah syg..i gt distracetd abit)
off to fajar..
back to bestie home..
ate n now im sitting in frt of my laptop..
i feel so sleepy..
yes yes yes..
tmrrow i gt no plans!!
wic means cn stay at home to slp..
slp..slp..
rest my body..
ohyea man!!

as i sat in the bus otw home jus now..
i past by many of the places we went..
the place wer we gt lost n anyhow alight at a bustop..
the palce wer i hav to persuade n feed u so dat u eat n wun fall sick..
i recollect those bus ride moments..
i started to feel so sad..
n how i wished it never ends..
but come to tink of it..
y shud i feel sorry for myself..
it was my loss in a way..
i lost my bestfriend cum boyfriend..
its his great loss..not mine
remember dat aishah
ur a gd and nice girl..
(ok dis part im trying to make myself feel good ok)

i still cnt get over you..
it takes time i noe..
dis is taking longer den it shud aishah..
nvm..
one fine day..
i will get over him..
b patient..

@ 12:02 AM

jus now i hav so many tings to blog about..
n now im blank!!
jus dat..
been a pretty busy week for me..
im totally shagged!!
im so deprived of rest,enjoyment and fun..
i nid to take a break n jus laugh till i cry..
but nowadays..
laughing to my heart's content is oredie difficult..
entah lah knape..

dats all for tdae i guess..
mimmicking session wif sawada-san and shuna was best!
hahaha...

i love gerberas!!
darn pretty..
shall get for my room soon..
hahaha..
looking at dem jus make sme smile n smile n smile..

I LOEV U
U LOVE ME
WE R HAPPY FAMILY
WITH A GREAT BIG HUG
AND A KISS FROM EM TO YOU
WUN U SAE U LOVE ME TOO??
(sae u do love me)
=) =)

tc ppl

Tuesday, June 17, 2008 @ 11:46 PM