Aishah Kamsani
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MeMoRies!!!

i gt the book!!
i gt thebook!!
omg im so excited..
and next week i cn watch the movie itself!!
omg!!
omg!!

i was toking to kerin..
den i sae dis..

i-sha: ayat-ayat cinta says:
remember the time wer i sae i mit u at class straight?
i-sha: ayat-ayat cinta says:
i was waiting for lift
i-sha: ayat-ayat cinta says:
den like mcm ages
i-sha: ayat-ayat cinta says:
so i took the stairs alone
i-sha: ayat-ayat cinta says:
creepy sia
Someday we'll know, says:
hahaha!
i-sha: ayat-ayat cinta says:
so lesson learnt
i-sha: ayat-ayat cinta says:
never take the stairs if ur alone
i-sha: ayat-ayat cinta says:
haha
Someday we'll know, says:
HAHAHAHA
Someday we'll know, says:
you ar so funnny
i-sha: ayat-ayat cinta says:
haha..
i-sha: ayat-ayat cinta says:
scary u noe
i-sha: ayat-ayat cinta says:
my heart was beating so fast
i-sha: ayat-ayat cinta says:
hahaha
i-sha: ayat-ayat cinta says:
its like
i-sha: ayat-ayat cinta says:
wen i reach level 5
i-sha: ayat-ayat cinta says:
i was like
i-sha: ayat-ayat cinta says:
thk god im alive!
i-sha: ayat-ayat cinta says:
hahaha
i-sha: ayat-ayat cinta says:
wad was i tinking back then dat i duno

haha..
laughing alot..

had my first attachment tdae..
i had a great time..
super cute..
n teh experience was very enriching n interesting..
my ambition: teacher
ohya by next year..pre-sch/child care teachers must hav 5 olevels..
dats wad i heard..
woah..society becoming very challenging n competitive..
insyaallah i'll realise my dreams..

60 ways to keep love
1. Make her feel secure, do not threaten her.
2. Say Assalaamu ‘alaikum wa rahmatullah upon entering your home.
3. Rasulullah described the wife as a fragile vessel, thus one should take care of her. In this particular vessel there is a lot of goodness, so treat her in a gentle way.
4. When you want to advise her, advise her in privacy.
5. Be generous to your wife. It is a direct business with Allah and it goes directly to your wife’s heart.
6. Offer her your seat. Tell her that you warmed the seat for her and she will warm her heart for you.
7. Avoid anger, keep wudu’ at all times.
8. Look good and smell great!
9. Don’t be rigid. One who is rigid and harsh hearted does not come close to Allah.
10. Be a good listener.
11. Yes for flattering. No for arguing. Arguing is a serious poison.
12. Call your wife with the best names. Sweetie, Honey bun, sweetie pie, be creative!
13. Give her a pleasant surprise: be an artist of surprises.
14. Preserve the tongue.
15. Do not look only at her shortcomings. Expect and accept her shortcomings and Allah will put baraka in your marriage.
16. Tell her that you appreciate her, or that you like what she did.
17. Encourage her to be in touch with her kin relatives.
18. Speak of the topic of her interest.
19. Right in front of her relatives, mention and confirm that she is wonderful!
20. Give each other gifts.
21. Surprise her. Make a change to get rid of the routine once in a while.
22. Think good of each other.
23. Pretend not to hear or see certain small things she said or did. For instance a little word she said that you didn’t like.
24. Add a drop of patience. Increase another drop at times where she is pregnant/ has her monthly period.
25. Expect and respect her jealousy.
26. Be humble.
27. Don’t make others, like your friends, happy at the expense of your wife/your happiness.
28. Help out at home.
29. Do not force your wife to love your parents. Help her to respect them and be kind to them and the love will come.
30. Show your wife that she is ideal. In many ways she is ideal.
31. Remember her in your du’a. Pray for her.
32. Leave the past to Allah.
33. Don’t show that you are doing a favour to her. We are the couriers, it is Allah that provides and sustains all His creation.
34. Satan is your enemy, your wife is not. Satan tries to throw words in your mouth and her mouth to fire at each other.
35. When you take food and put it in her mouth, you get rewarded for it.
36. Protect your wife, your precious pearl, from the envy of the Shayaateen, among the men and jinn.
37. Show her your smile, it’s a Sadaqa.
38. When little challenges are not taken care of or ignored and repeated, they become a big problem.
39. Avoid being harsh hearted and just moody.
40. Respect her thinking and show that you respect her thoughts and suggestions.
41. Help her to find and discover more of her talents/skills. Her success is your success.
42. Respect the intimate relationship and the boundaries of it. Sometimes she is not feeling well or sick.
43. Help her to take care of your children.
44. Give her the gifts of the tongue: “You look great” etc. Be an artist!
45. Eat your meals together.
46. Let her know when you are travelling and what day and time you are coming back.
47. Take some time out when you are angry.
48. Ensure that the home has secrecy and privacy.
49. Encourage each other with the ‘ibaadat/worship of Allah. Plan a trip to Hajj/ ‘Umrah together.
50. Engrave her rights in your heart and conscience.
51. Treat her with kindness and goodness in times of prosperity and adversity.
52. There is a messenger at the time of intimate relationship: the kiss.
53. If you are having problems with your spouse and you need advise, disclose only to those who care for you AND have knowledge.
54. Take care of her health, in turn you are taking care of your own.
55. Accept that you are not perfect. Nobody is always right except Rasulullah ‘alaihissalatu wassalam.
56. Share your happiness and sadness with her.
57. Have mercy on her when she is weak.
58. Be the chest for her to lean on.
59. Accept her as she is. Accept her weaknesses. You may dislike one manner/ habit of hers but you will love another.
60. Have a good intention for your wife at all times.
♥
(www.ahmadshehab.com)
credits to kak muna's blog..
i found dis meaningful..
i believe dis is the way a woman should b treated..
insyaallah..in turn i will try to b a good woman if nt better..
insyaallah..amin..

i wan to read ayat-ayat cinta
n watch the movie..
i wonder wer i cn get it..
i'll search n b patient..
=)

thursday..
outing wif my gurlfs!!
miss dem..
yahoo!
cnt wait..

i spent my sunday going to halaqah..
it was real worthwhile..
5 hours of jus sitting around my sisters..
i miss dem oredie..
i cried..while reflecting on myself..
i cried..cos i envy those older den me hu has donned the tudong..
while here i am..wanting to do dat..but dere's sth preventing me..
oh god..giv me the strength to withstand all these..
n finally break the barrier dats holding me back..

as i write this..little little tears flow down my cheeks..
i jus duno how to describe how i feel..
the different emotions dats going thru my mind now..
its like im in a big pool of water..
trying to gasp for air n stay afloat..

n again..
i miss him..
dis is frustrating..
i hate dis..
i wan to stop dis..
but i simply cant..
jus one mistake in life...cn make the rest of ur life miserable..
dis past follows me ard..
until the day i gav out my last breathe..

how i wish i could live in a secluded place wer i cnt get in touch wif anyone except ALLAH..
life would den b simple n a very meaningful one..

dats all for now..
off to read chapter 7 of child development..

a whole day full of drama n sadness..

went picnic wif lesbian partners at botanic gardens..
as i enter the garden..
i start to broke into cold sweat..
was shivering..
my vision blurred..
cramps excruciating painful..
hearing tuned down..
face turn pale..
wanted to faint..
but thankfully gt my bestie n fav lesbian partner..
dey took my bag hold my hand n brg me to sit..
make me eat n drink..
n im starting to feel orite..
laid a mat under this tree..
i lay down..
had lots of fun toking..
painting nails..
playing uno..
removing nailpolish..
pampering the fav lesbian partner..
the view at nite was spectacular..
stars everywer..
in a big area full of greenery..
share stuff..cried..
n i felt so much better..
it feels like a burden being lifted from my shoulder..
im so thankful i hav dem..
went home after dat..

a full day of events..
i wan to relax again..
should make it a point to do dis..
get fresh air every week..
good for the body n mind..

i told wad i've been keeping for so long..
i feel so much better..
but y isit a part of me is still longing for u..

"i open my eyes on the hospital bed to see him with a teddy bear n smiling"
it was comforting..
those were my happiest moments..

jus came back from cca..
had loads of fun..
im in PHANTOM baybeh..
small grp tdae but surely the noisy grp one..
=)
TAS..cca dat i didnt regret joining..
haha..i made so many new frens..
my life in NP will b great..

tmrrow going picnic!!
yay!!
im so excited..

my arm still hurts..
hope it wun swell up..=)

ok im tired..
gd nite ppl..n gd nite my dearest blog..
muackz!!

i cried..
i think bout u..
i want u..
but at the same time..
i cnt b wif u..
life's unfair..
accept it..

woke up ard 11 plus..
i still feel tired..
dis is wad happens if u sleep late n wake up late..
no sch for me tdae..
yest called up the chidcare centre..
haha..im required to brg my medical report..
so gt to get it from sch
at the same time..
get my textbooks later..
pay TAS tshirt..
pay ZETAPI hoodie..
go for members act for TAS..
wah..
so many tings to do..

not to forget i hav to go doctor for my second jab..hep b..
im so afraid of needles..ah!!
but well mus learn to relax..

meeting kerin n amalina later..
been a long time since i met amalina..=)

now here i am using the laptop to pass time..
n oso hav to constantly looking out for my lil sis..
she is so naughty..
omg!! i cnt tahan..
so nosy..
but well she is developing..
cnt blame her lah..
so jus bear wif it..

at the side of my blog i put 3 other songs wic r songs from my fav boybands..
their songs r simply the best..
=)

things has never been the same..
life keep changing..
i'll jus hav to b prepared of wad the future holds for me..
i miss u still..

signing out..aishah

Little girl and her father were crossing a bridge.
The father was kind of scared so he asked his little daughter,
"Sweetheart, please hold my hand so that you don't fall into the river."
The little girl said, "No, Dad. You hold my hand."
"What's the difference?"
Asked the puzzled father.
"There's a big difference," replied the little girl.
"If I hold your hand and something happens to me, chances are that I may let your hand go. But if you hold my hand, I know for sure that no matter what happens, you will never let my hand go."

In any relationship, the essence of trust is not in its bind, but in its bond.


a beautiful story indeed..=)

that moment..
it stays inside..
mixed feelings..
y cnt i let go?
y do i miss u?
being strong..
but how strong am i?
dis is even tougher den exams..
gah!!=/

i love my course..
hey 1A02 if anyone is reading..
does anyone of u nid to show ur medical report for the attachment?

im in sch..
wasting my time here..
meeting bestie later..
omg!!i didnt bring my handphone..grr..
im so forgetful..
everyday at least gt sth i either forget to do..forget to bring..forget to inform..
forgetful me..
mus improve on myself i guess..

was toking to azri..
i missed him..
sometimes how i wish he was here wif me again..
but as someone hu's jus dere for me..like family..
he is a part of me..
n without him i feel kinda uneasy..
a new chapter in my life..
i guess my friendship wif him is back to square one..
neither close nor distant..but mre den jus frens..i myself dun understand dis..haha..
bear wif it..
aishah's gonna get over this..=)

im sitting again here @ ourspace wif my clasmates..
1A02 rocks!!
3 years gonna b tgether..
yea man..
a fun bunch n interesting one too..

shall update mre!!=)
soon!!

Labels: i wan my hp

im preety much tired tdae..
so let me jus let the pictures talk..
i hav my council's bbq pictures..shall post it tmrrow i guess..
signing out..
aishah=)

ok im now at library..

updates..

thurday nite after the big quarrel wif MR A..
im attending a FANTAZIA concert..
its a welcome hip hop concert held specially for freshmen..=)
it was awesome even though gt many chinese songs..
the dance moves were great..
i saw kaili..
she dance darn well..
3 cheers for her..
after concert..head down to newton food centre to eat..
super nice..
the stingray n satay were great..
shall head down there many times to come..
reach home around 12am..
slept..

friday had field practicum class..
3rd week start practicum oredie..
everyone will b posted to a kindergarten..
we r supposed to observe the children's behaviours n stuff..
at the same time interact with them..
now i duno wad to wear..
omg..=/
i'll call up the centre i guess..
after class..
went to eat wif my classmates..
10 of us went to canteen 4..
eat eat..talk talk..
n we decide that on monday..
everyone gonna wear the same colour shirt..
went to library den to ourspace..
met the rest of my classmates..
so 1AO2 class were sitting tgether..
cool..
we were laughing..snacking..talking..
basically having a blast time wif each other..
suggestions start to come in..
class tshirts..class outing..i like my class!!=)

while the rest went to class..
me n kerin sat inside the reading room..
it was so cold n we were falling asleep..
den fadhuli called..
went to get a cake..
thanx to kerin for sending us to bpp to get the cake..
den came back to sch..
head to ourspace there..
celebrated in there..
haha..we gt into trouble..imagine first week of sch kena warning..
haha..but its orite..

den waited for farhan n nazmi..
dey came..
we jus chill n talk..
had lots of fun
i was the ony gurl there..but well i noe dem so well..i dunmind..
went to meet Mel..
n talk talk..
den head home..

i had a great week in NGEE ANN..
ECH the best..

HMS won for the telematch!yippee!!

dats all..
signing out" aishah

been a few days yea..
first day of school was great..
didnt reli get to noe my frens..
well tmrrow gt class..so im gonna get to noe my classmates..task 1..
haha
thursday got fantaZia concert..
friday gt halaqah..
sat gt movie date wif 2 guy frens..
sunday..beach day out wif bestie..
=)
so excited..

ok..i nid to start studying..tmrrow once i get the book..studying will b part of my routine i guess..

been thinking alot about him..
jus yest..i start to recall those times wen he was a reli nice guy.. how loving he was..the tings he did for me..how broad his smile were..how comforting his hugs were..haix..i do miss him..
but well he had moved on..
i should b doing the same..
but i cnt deny i oredie moved on..
so yea after think think think..
i duno wic part of moving on i ahven moved on..haha
ony i understand dis lah..

cn i jus sae chris brown is hot!!
he is so totally gorgeous man..he gt the body..the voice..the personality..the groove..the move..
ok i shall stop..*melts* ahh!!! chris brown!!

i miss my frens..
most of my np frens were asking me..
how cme dey never see me ard campus..
i told dem i gt no lesson tdae..
den yest my lesson end ard 1pm..walk ard den make my way home..cos im tired..n wasnt feeling well..
so a day at home tdae..
i was sleeping all the way..
too tired i guess..
ok den..i guess dats all for now..
next monday gt council investiture n bbq..
coolsomeness!!
cnt wait..

n i fought wif him again yest..haix..
he tok as if wan or dunwan..
i hav to stop toking to him..
once i start i cnt stop..
haix..
help me god!
i wanna get over dis boy..
its hurting me all over again..

i still want u..but i hav to stop tinking bout u..help!

Labels: help needed

been tinking..
wads life if i kip pondering on those negative thoughts n let dem bother me..
life is about me..
went out for a swim wif family at cck swimming complex..
came back..took a nap..
den went out again wif bestie to bpp to go library n borrow books..
den went to eat for a while..
we tok bout stuff..
im jus glad that i gt sth to do before i let my mind think of things wic r unnecessary for me..
as we were walking home..
i told her dis..
"i realise wen im wif him,i cnt speak freely..i hav to b conservative n choose my words properly..dats nt right for a relationship..y didnt it end earlier.."
i tot to myself..
y mus i let the relationship became serious..
blames on me..
its ok lah..
i learn things out of tis..

i still feel jealous..hurt..sad..
but well it takes time i guess..
but im getting better at devoting my time to myself..
discover hu i reli am..

well..well..im outta words..
gtg..
shall update soon..
monday sch starts..
omg! kids..
ah!!i love dem..
=)

this week im always at home..

the weather is too nice to go out..

very lazy..

well..first things first..

i gt this bump on my head n it hurts big time..

anther bump at my neck area..

i cnt lie down on my left side..torture man..

but well i gt to endure..

im always falling sick..

haven been eating much..

no appetite..

my health has been deteriorating..

duno y..

was watching hongkong shows at channel 55 n 255..

its real nice..

the actors hu played in the brink of law..hotness!



yest had a conversation wif a fren..

i duno wads his problem?

always picking a fight wif me..

scold me for no reason..

if i were to do sth rong den its ok lah for him to scold me..but now i didnt even do aniting rong..

was jus saying wadeva that comes to my head..jus like any normal conversation..
well put that aside..i had enuf of silence..
jus inform him bout the prestige fair..
n the prestige card thingy..nt even a word of thanks.pfft!
so nt worth my time..

wadeva lah..nt gonna let him ruin my day..
i miss my frens..
tmrrow gonna see them..yahoo!!!
lalala..

had religious class..
as i sat there..
i was stunned n tears start to well up..
haix..cn i nt experience death..
insyaallah i will leave this world dgn keredhaan allah.amin

tdae the whole day like nice weather to sleep..
so nice wen i woke up at 12pm..
i jus remembered of this weird dream..

i met up wif mr A..
he looks cross..i gt very worried..
kip asking him y..but he refused..
he seem annoyed and sad at the same time..
finally he said sth..
he sae y mus i b like everyone else..
blogging about my personal lives..
sounding like everyoen else..he hates it wen im like dat..
den he held my hands look into my eyes..
he said sth..
but those words assured me n i cried..
we hug n kissed..
promised never to part again..
i woke up after dat..

i cnt help feeling empty inside..
it was all jus a dream..
well,i hope history wun repeat itself..
i dun wish to hav someone hu assure me life's gonna b orite for us den in the end he b teh one destroying every hope..
i nid someone to protect me..love me for hu i am..assure me everyting gonna b orite..
rite now ony 1 hu i truly love most..god,how i wish i cn b near u..b able to mit u..
there's no other god other den u..

im listening to nurun nuwarrah song..nice lah..shall put in on my blog..
haha..
enjoy ppl!
=)
its in malay though..

A worthwhile show..i cried..very beautiful story..
if ony i hav so much money..i would love to travel around the world..
next up on my movie list:
definitely,maybe, hansel n gretel, prom night, over her dead body and many more..
so far,the worthwhile shows that i've watched..

• the leap years
• step up 2
• 10 000 BC
• the bucket list
• vantage point

and i forget oredie wad other movies i've watched..haha

went out wif bestie again.

bought a necklace and a belt..

saw dis nice dress n skirt..

im so gonna buy it..

mayb dis cming week..haha

its super unique laa the skirt n dress..floral prints in an asian way..

plus i nid to get bags and shoes/sandals..

dats all for now..=)

horoscope from frenster for me tdae..

leo

You need to listen to your heart. Sure, it might sound trite to you at first, but it is an important change you need to make right now. You have been analyzing things way too much -- putting what people say under a microscope and thinking much too hard about it. Back up. Why not just believe that people are saying what they mean? There are no hidden meanings or tricks going on -- there is no need to be suspicious, and your generous, kind heart knows that. Listen to it!

somehow i feel like crying..but for wad reason?i duno y..

well off to watch tv! or watch coffee prince again!

haha..im so in love wif korean shows..

signing out!

anther day has passed..

darn..everyting is going the opposite way of wad i wanted..

i duno wad to say..

i kip quiet salah..tok oso salah..

nvm aishah..b patient..



As i make my way home, i was listening to my mp4 wif azri beside me.

i look at him.den to the ppl outside the bus.den to the sky.

tears jus welled up.i feel sad.

alot of things has been on my mind.

i duno if i ever get to be here again tomorrow.

i hav no idea whether i will wake up tmrrow.

to see my family members,relatives,frens and so many othr ppl.

life's too short.

oh god pls open up my heart..i reli wan to mend my ways..

insyaallah..



sometimes i worry too much bout others dat i neglect myself.

i duno wads rong..

i kip quiet,it seems wrong..

i tok n b open,it seems wrong too..

giving me such a headache..



sentosa outing was fun..

even though it was a while for me as i hav to leave earlier..

played ball wif some of my frens..

had loads of fun n man was i tired after dat..

reli drain out my energy..



head down to bugis..

gt 2 necklaces for bestie n me..

its a best friends kinda thing..

cool lah..

best friends out there..go DIVA n check out their best buds necklaces..nice..n nt dat expensive..
went home after a while..
n i played rollercoaster tycoon 2..
nice game..
but i kip losing my money..
haha..nvm i wan to b rich again..but i duno how to..
dumb aishah..

i guez dats it for now..
im so in love wif COFFEE PRINCE..
darn sweet lah the guy..han-keoul to eun chan..i
makes me smile..

i love myself..very very much..
=)
peace out!

very pissed with both my siblings..
urgh..making me darn angry..
one super lazy..the other one very rebellious..
cnt be bothered wif dem..
baking some cookies now..
i hope it turns out nice..

yesterday went religious class..
i learnt alot from yesterday..
it is a worthwhile class..
wen ustazah muna hug me..
i nearly cried..
her hug makes me feel so warm inside..
n i feel secured..
im glad i met her..n the rest of the halaqah group..
sayang dgn mereka..
patience..2nd most important thing in life..
life is about struggling..
i hav to b patient..

so here am i again..
still at home..
bored to death..
going to bestie home later..
jus chill out..
omg!my lil sis is such a pain man..
she cause so much noise n create a hell lot of mess in the house..
now she's screaming to herself..haha..
i love bullying her..it makes me being an older sister cool..

hell load of tings hapen yest..
now u do not know me..
n i in turn do not know u..
our lives have never crossed each other paths..
its better dis way i guess..
i will move on faster..

as i was cleaning the house just now..
i realised that for the past years..
i live my life for others more den for myself..
i should stop doing dis..
i gotta do wads rite for me..
n go my own way..
i shouldnt be dependant on others or follow wad other people ask me to do..
live my life my own way..
cos life's too short..
cherish those beautiful memories..
n erase all sadness or heart-ache memories..

i jus hope wen school starts..
a new chapter of my life opens up..
with this note..
im so looking forward to what the future holds for me..
=)
at last im smiling n feeling a lil lot better..

the word (LOVE) is a very strong word..
i shall use it carefully from now onwards..

darn i sound so emo..
but well dear blog..
ur the place wer i cn share my stories wif..
ohya i forgot..i gt u a partner..its a wordpress weblog..
that blog is ony meant for my life story..
the place for me to pour out my feelings will still b u..
i have had u for more den 4 years now..
thx for being such a great companion..
loves!!

a whole day of resting for me..
i still feel sleepy even after sleeping for 12 hrs..
received a letter from zss..
awards day..required to attend..
i will get to meet my peeps..
weiying my ever so crazy partner in class..
excited bout it..
mayb tomorrow i going gurl guides..
been a long time since i drop by..
been busy lately..
wif sch stuff..
how i miss secondary school life..
=)

looking forward to sunday..
SENTOSA outing wif my foc people..
i miss dem..reunion dis sun..

a few mre hours to IZDIHAR's birthday..
woohoo..i hope i remember to sms her at 12am sharp..
hahaha..im alwaes forgetting stuff like dis..
aishah..remember things..

while most of my frens r looking forward to sch...
i am so not looking forward to sch..i noe gona b tiring..
7 weeks of dpa is draining..
but im sure normal sch days wun b dat tough..
all the best to AISHAH..
strive hard to get good results yea..

well i wan watch my korean show..but the cd not wif me..
nvm tomorrow i shall watch..
i guez dats all for now..
shall update wif pictures soon for my dpa bbq..my foc camp..n mayb dis sunday outing..

current mood: still feeling blue n missing u alwaes

i jus came back from dpa bbq..
had a nice time there..

now its 2 plus in the mrning n im still nt sleeping..
i jus feel like crying..
y mus u leave me jus like dat..
i simply cnt get u out of my head..darn..
jus spoke to u on the hp..y mus i alwaes giv in..
im stupid aren't i..
just wen i tot im gona forget bout u..
u re-appeared in my life again..
how long will dis continue..
i still kip hoping dat u'll return to me one day..
(AISHAH!! STOP HOPING!!)
=( =(
every night i'll cry..
y isit so hard?
the real reason y i cnt forget u is very obvious..
but..i MUST move on..
im just waiting for the day..

ur words keep coming back into my head..
the last time wen i dunwan to get back tgether..
u assured me..u'll protect me..
where has it all gone to?
im feeling very miserable inside..
oh pls..let dis end soon..
i cnt reli take it anymre..
i dunwan to break down again..
cos if dat hapens..i'
ll do foolish stuff..
i'll regret everyting by then..

the memories u left me..
everywer i go..im reminded of u..
we will b in the same school..
for anther 3 years..
wad would i sae wen i mit u?
wad would i do wen i mit u?
wad would i react wen i cu?
im so worried..
i dunwan to avoid u..
but is that the best way now??

im darn confused rite now..
i wan u badly but i noe i cnt hav u..
hearing ur voice has eased the pain a bit..but it makes me miss u mre..
i jus hope for the best..

dats all..
nite..

ok i haven been around for like a few weeks i guez??
been busy..
jus attended 3 camps..
n i SWEAR..
FOC 08 rawks like hot socks man!!
my freshmen orientation camp was a blast..
far from my expectations..
total turnout of more den 700 ppl..
the theme dis year is GREEK!!
im soo like thankful n happy being in ZETA PI..
sub grp- LEMON PI
i love dis group man..
it seems like just yest i was wif a group of strangers from all over singapore..
n now we r all one big family..
big big thanks to NPSU..
ohmy there's gonna be dinner n dance upcoming..
soo excited man..
=)*big smiles*
wen im bored at home or alone..
i do sing all the cheers i hav learnt to myself..
weird..but i like!!
the friends i made during my dpa programme n FOC camp..
god it's making me real excited to enter NGEE ANN..
i lost my voice a coulpe of days ago..but hey now i cn scream again..yea man!!

met n went shopping wif bestie on sunday n jus chill out wif her yest..
met up with the 2 hunks yest..
i swear dey have become more grown up n mature..=)
so proud of dem..
i missed dem loads..

tomorrow hav east coast bbq..
friday gt izdi's bdae..
sunday FOC outing to sentosa..
next thursday..ice skating wif my 3 best peeps..
next friday..induction programme..
so packed my schedule..
gosh..
its ok..
at least im doing sth..

i still miss him terribly..
darn..it does make me go crazy..
i still love him..
y isit i cnt jus forget bout him..
after wad u did..i doubt it'll be easy for me..
haix..