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Thursday, December 24, 2009 @ 12:48 PM



you know that feeling you get
when sth very very precious being taken away from u
the feeling you get
when u jus wan the clock to stop ticking cos the pain is unbearable
the feeling you get
when everything seems to jus crumble n fall
the feeling you get
when you're too stress n all u wan to do is scream n cry

its been a few days
n all i wan to do
is to run away

maybe i should stop
stop believing
stop hoping
stop being optimistic
cos by doing all dat
im killing myself

n today i woke up to greet a cold morning
if only i could jus snuggle n not get up
but wait
dere's alot of things i got to do

i do not want to think about anything else
jus let it be
maybe, that's the right thing to do eh?

i secretly wish.............


Tuesday, December 22, 2009 @ 11:26 PM

tiada sanggupku mendengar
berita tentang deritamu
tiada daya aku
membelai ubun-ubunmu
semuanya kerna kita
insan yang lupa undang-undangnya
semuanya kerna kita
insan yang lupa kasih sayangnye
hey ya! oops! tolong laa oh oh
jiwa ku meronta-ronta
hey ya! oops! tolong laa oh oh
jiwa ku meronta-ronta
tiada sanggupku mendengar
berita tentang deritamu
tiada daya aku
membelai ubun-ubunmu

a nice song
we all learnt during our training

xoxo aishah

i jus feel like my world is crumbling down now
i feel like Fcuk

Sunday, December 20, 2009 @ 11:22 PM


just like how wen im down n out
u'll b there to tell me it's alrite
im gonna do exactly the same for u boy
cos ur far too precious
to b hurt
to feel hurt
yes you
ur never alone

unconditional love
wads the definition of dat?


Friday, December 18, 2009 @ 10:05 PM


to keep on smiling requires alot alot of guts
n hell yeah!
i am doing it fine
holding on
staying strong

life has been (as per normal) like a rollercoaster ride..
one moment im all laughing n smiling away
the next i jus feel like shutting myself away from everything
to jus cry n cry
but i've learned not to be that weakling anymre
to jus cry wenever im being sad
it helps really
but it does wonders if i were to stand on my two feet
n face the music
yes aishah
u r that strong
u r that girl
hu noes she got his back
cos he got urs too

things jus became haywire
unexpected changes here n dere
will i b able to cope?
i noe i cn
yes i cn

could it be that its the time of the mth again
where i get all so emotional
wer i feel like everything is going to fall but in actual fact
im jus too clouded/blinded to ikut2kn perasaan

i hate that feeling
where every single thing that u do
seems rong
u need to do sth
yet u duno wad

reality is catching up on me
i dunwan to go back dere
i wan to stay in my world
wer "problems/obstacles"
r never in my dictionary
but wait..
dat isnt life
n life isnt a fairytale
we all noe dat dun we?

to say all dat
it took me a lot of confidence n guts
n i dun jus sae things
i mean every single word/phrase/sentence that came out of my mouth

could dere be a reason why im facing all dis?
yes of cos dere is
all these are tests from Him
ya Allah
give me the strength and patience to face any obstacles dat comes my way

every girl will say
"i feel like crying"
little do people noe
they oredie did cry inside
cos girls cry in silence most of the time

ok lets not be dat biased
isit fair for me to say that
EVERYONE cries in silence for half of his/her life?

i love u boy
n i miss u
im here for u

Thursday, December 17, 2009 @ 9:43 PM


15th DEC 09
my lil angel celebrated her 5th bdae
family dined over at Seoul Garden yet again
after dat day
i so dunlike the smell of the place
it made me dizzy n i stink like a barbecued human being

while in the car after mum n dad picked me up
mum told me dey wan get me my new phone
wheehoo!
it was sudden
i was shocked for a few minutes
head over to M1 shop n got myself wad i wanted
htc tattoo
wheehoo
btu difficult to use for now
gah!
but nvm laa
im still learning





i find them so cute
cnt wait to watch their movie


have a great weekend
cos tomorrow's FRIDAY
wheehoo

Monday, December 14, 2009 @ 10:25 PM

it feels great to hav
dat feeling when you thought life's pretty normal
BUT
thats temporary
den REALITY comes knocking on your door
to say
"HEY! u forgot*insert unnecessary matters*!"

life has been insanely crazy for yours truly
with the hectic schedules what nots
dun b too happy yet
even though i hav my break already
my e-learning assignments are piling up
waiting for me
plus ITA video presentation to b done by wed
plus lines to remember for JJ

i went to 313 @ somerset yest
was awesome!
gosh! i cnt wait to go again to do sme serious shopping
baby! im waiting for u lor..end year shopping wif me okay okay okay

i realised my blog updates have been filled wif pics with little words
im jus lazy to type it all down

n today i met up wif F to hav dinner wif him
MCDONALDS!
yummy
i cnt live without fastfood for at least once a week
dat is how bad i am
im a huge fan of MCDONALDS
never get tired of it

we tok bout our sec sch lives
n it makes me sit back to reflect on things that hapen during sec sch
i was a B**ch at times
all i cud do now
is to laugh it off
what a CRAZY sec sch life i had

i miss my cuzins so much
suppose to plan an outing
hmm..soon okay darlings

i need a getaway!
but with my schedule
no way!
nvm
semester break
im definitely going smewer
i dun care

"the best feeling is listening to someone's heartbeat
& knowing that it's beating for no one, but you."

IMMISSINGYOU.tumblr.com



Saturday, December 12, 2009 @ 7:40 PM


met these wondeful girls today ( 12/12/09)
had lunch over at Breeks @ Marina Square
n celebrated Filzah's n Weileng's birthday
food was alrite
the company made it all better as always

walked around
ended up in Fourskin
bought hairbands,badges,rings,head bands for ourselves
=)
we are very happy happy girls
Hope our dear girl Filzah
like what she gets
=D

i remembered how we became close
it all started with us being chosen to b part of the Student Council family
hehh
camps after camps
being together
n the fact that Weiying was my classmate for the straight 4 years
=)
happy happy moments

we each have grown up
n im proud of dem all

i had a wonderful afternoon
thank you girls

pictures will be at FB

sometimes i feel like jus screaming n run for the exit
but guess wad
in life?
the only exit is Death

cn TIME slow down n stop?
i need some QT with my loved ones badly
esp family n baby
=(

@ 7:22 PM

























PICTURES FROM MCC MAIN COMM OUTING TO SENTOSA
=)

@ 1:00 AM



Yanti put this link on Twitter
gah! they're good
=)
one of my preferred Korean Boybands

*i watched this music video intently n didnt realise i didnt blink my eyes for quite some time..hahaha!*

Friday, December 11, 2009 @ 11:58 PM

n i've learnt to jus be happy like a bumble bee
tings will fall into the right place

no matter what happens
i noe im wif you
n ur wif me

we did it girls!
=)
lets all have a well deserved rest!

ECH makes us crazy in a CUTE way
=p



all those crazy moments during drama training
for Jiwo Jiro

xoxo
Aishah

proper updates when i feel like it


Monday, December 07, 2009 @ 1:55 PM

n to this awesome girl here!
HAPPY 20th BDAE NISA love!
=)
may u always be full of smiles
n dat every ting that u do in life
i wish u all the best
u noe u hav me!
i love you!
7th DEC 09


to the girl in the middle!!
HAPPY HAPPY 18th BDAE BAHIRAH!!
6th DEC 09
=)
stay pretty
n keep on rocking!
i cnt wait to go out again
n hav dat eating session ok!
=)
best!
love ya!


to this awesome girlfren of mine!
FILZAH!!
happy happy 18th birthday darling!!
6th DEC 09
i cnt wait to see u darling
soonish please
=)
miss u truckloads
muacks!
hugs n kisses!

@ 1:26 PM

the funny ting about love
it cn make ur whole world crumble n fall
yet everything seems to fall right into place

at this point of time
i may be selfish
i may only tink about myself
but its wad i wan
sometimes its nt rong
to jus go n get wad u wan rite
however
timings r still impt
sometimes u jus need to put aside everything
to jus deal with stuff dat is going on

my imperfections
make me the girl i am today
the one hu u fall in love wif
the one hu u hav been spending a year or so with
not everyone cn tolerate me
dat im very sure of

no i wun let go
no i wun giv up

all i need is u by my side baby

n wen life came crashing down on me
i noe u'll be there to catch me

holding on
hanging on
life sucks
but the people around me
makes everything alil better

i cnt wait to mit Fara! Haron!
i cnt wait to laugh with my GIRLFs!
i cnt wait to hug my HP!
most of all
i cnt wait to run to FAUZAN!
my one n only babyboy

today i was being assessed by my supervisor
barely made it
thank god i passed
alot of mistakes
many room for improvements
i feel so sucky dat i felt like crying
wen conducting my lesson
the kids were not cooperating
i made it in the end

jus dat now
i reli do ask myself
is this career line sth i really wan to do?
cos im starting to not like it
depressing much
n it brings down one's confidence jus like dat
i lost mine
slowly gaining it back
hopefully i guess
=/

last lap!
one mre down today
bye DPIP
i jus cnt wait for Friday

for now
go AISHAH!
give ur very best shot!
aza aza fighting!


Thursday, December 03, 2009 @ 9:09 PM


the product of my first attempt to use photoshop to edit pictures
wheehoo!
=)
success okay

PEC = DONE
EC = DONE
EA = DONE
left with
DPIP
SF
ITA
FP

i jus cnt wait for next week
it'll b over
n comes 1 mth of no school for me
wheehoo!
=)
but MEL assignments waiting for me
n JJ rehearsals
okay
back to hectic schedules oredie

so how's life?
my weekends were burned doing assignments
n falling sick terribly

a few hiccups here n there
but i guess
everything will be fine
=)

i miss FARAH

farah farah
i miss going out wif u
i miss jus toking with u for many many endless hours
i miss having sleepovers wif u
i miss jus locking ourselves in a room to jus dress up jus to go out
i miss us walking aimlessly around anywer jus to get out of the house
i miss us sitting over at Starbucks n jus having hot chocolate on rainy days
i terribly miss u darling
but deep down
werever i go
wadeva i do
i noe ur near me

13 years n still counting
from the times we wear our blue uniforms
to our yellow green uniform
to your light blue uniform
to my redblack uniform
to us saying goodbyes to uniform
to u wearing a nurse uniform (nyp)
to me wearing "teacher" clothes
we have grown
all grown up now

i'll alwaes noe wen sth is not right darling
u'll alwaes noe wen i dun sound right
we jus noe wads going thru each other's mind

n im proud to say darling
ur one strong girl
STRONGER n BRAVER like any knight in shiny armour

at any point of time
wen u trip n fall
i'll b there to catch u
i'll make sure u land on the ground without feeling any pain

never say thank you to me
i do all dat cos i wan to
naturally
without having to think
a simple text/call from u
werever i am
i'll rush down or jus reach u
to make sure ur okay

be strong love
cos i am
n i noe u r too

i close my eyes n pray
dat everything will be alrite
insyaallah

baby
i wan u

@ 9:56 AM




ART OF LOVE

I’m saying sorry in advance cos this won’t always go to plan
Though we don’t mean to take our love for granted
It's in our nature to forget what matters
How when the going is getting tough
And we’re all about giving up
Things that we never thought we’d gonna say, gonna say them
Things that we never thought we’d play, gonna play them
It ain’t perfect, but it’s worth it
And it’s always getting better
It’s gonna take some time to get it right

Cause I’m still learning the art of love
I’m still trying to not mess up
So whenever I stumble let me know
You need to spell it out
You need to spell it out
You need to spell it out
You need to spell it out for me
Cause I’m still trying to learn the art of love

If I forget to get the door
Remind you that you’re beautiful
I know my detail requires more attention
If I ever hurt you it’s not my intention
Cause we’re gonna make our mistakes
Find out how much your heart can take
But I know that you got my back
And baby I got yours

Cause I’m still learning the art of love
I’m still trying to not mess up
So whenever I stumble let me know
You need to spell it out
You need to spell it out
You need to spell it out
You need to spell it out for me
Cause I'm still trying to learn the art of love

Sometimes I’m gonna miss
I’m still learning how to give
I’m not giving up
I’m still learning how to love
Learning how to love…
Learning how to love

Cause I’m still learning the art of love
I’m still trying to not mess up
So whenever I stumble let me know
You need to spell it out
You need to spell it out
You need to spell it out
You need to spell it out for me
Cause I'm still trying to learn the art of love
(The art of love)

Still learning (art of love)
Still learning (art of love)
Still learning (art of love)
Still trying to learn the art of love
Still learning, I'm still learning (art of love)
Still learning (art of love)
I'm gonna get it sometimes, cause I'm still learning
Still learning (art of love)
Still learning (art of love)
Still learning (art of love)
The art art of love

n i noe im still learning
xoxo

Wednesday, December 02, 2009 @ 2:53 PM


n now i open my arms
i need all the strength that i cn get
to jus pull through and hold on

maybe
its that time of the month i guess
wer everything seems to be difficult
its just a test
temporary one
just temporary
*gosh how pathetic cn u be aishah*