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Saturday, May 24, 2008 @ 9:12 PM

do u have the heart to let go of me??
11/18/2006 1:00 pm
dat particular question set me thinking now..
u asked me dat..n my reply was
i dun hav the heart to do dat...
i reli reli love you
u replied back..
i love u too dear..i reli do..i've nvr loved a girl like i love u b4, baby...
but after a year..
everyting changed..
those words..meant nothing at all..
i promised myself never to hold on to my past anymre..
but it seems dat im breaking dis promise over and over again..
im moving on..dats for sure..
but i kip looking back..
having thoughts like what if? if only..
haix..
the guy hu was there for me for everyting..
wen i was sick..wen i was in hospital..wen i was having dental checkups..
wen i was away for a day and u wun stop worrying..
wen i go for camps,ur afraid im gonna leave u..
now we jus merely exchange hi-s in msn..
its like as if i dun noe u at all..
reli saddening..

time will heal me..
but i noe those memories will b forever etched in my heart..

well enuf bout that..
i sit back and tink of all the tings i hav went thru..
every little actions i do hav its consequences..
health wise..
its funny wen i tink back..
i went thru gum operation..root canal treatment..(after eating toomuch of chocs and ice cream wen too stress)
drip..(dehydration)countless injections..(checkups n all)countless doses of medicine..(sick)
gastrics..(no proper diet)stomach cramps dat simply will make me pass out..(period)
i am a weak person..
i mus do sth man..
haha..
i do exercise..i tink i nid to balance everyting out..
kip a healthy lifestyle aishah..=)

studies..
ohk im clueless bout my play assignment..
i hav recorded from the videos..n what's next??
i bet most of my clasmates felt the same way too..
tests r cming..
quizzes to b done..
library search to b done too..
field pract observation to b done..
woah..its tying me down..
n its jus the first semester..

friends..
i miss dem loads..
i duno how long since i see dem..
everyone too busy..
haix..
now i miss mys ec sch days again..=(

family..
ever so noisy..
well jus tahan lah..
i cnt b bothered smetimes..
i'll jus do my own stuff..

my emotional state..
i still cnt accept and believe everyting that has happen to me..
n after dat..u left me..
=(
its real heartbreaking..
y mus u do dat!!

its all in a mess..
my life..
hasnt fall into place..
insyaallah..
things will get better each day..

happy birthday to fana!!(23rd may)
happy birthday to diana!!(24th may)
=)
oh man..gonna b a week until i see my clasmates again..
wic means giving pressies oso belated..
1A02 ECH the best..

toodles!!