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Wednesday, September 24, 2008 @ 12:09 PM

here i am again jus woke up..
i had somuch trouble sleeping last night...
woke up for sahur to find out bout sth..
it disgusts me..it worries me..it hurt me in a way..
cos how cud u do all dat?
wad bout the word family..
do u reli understand the true meaning of dat word??
disappointment again..

i tried so hard to b alright..
but i noe im not..
its ok..
i jus nid time..
stay strong will u aishah?
fornow i cn cope..
cos im busy wif work n preparations for the joyous month..
after dat will b sch/dance/work
i noe im gonna b tired n shaagged..
but its ok..
at the very least im occupied wif stuff to do..
distract me a lil from all the problems i face..

so yea things r now clear..
i noe wad to do..
but i still cnt help feeling jus not me..
cos it does affect me in some way..
im glad i took the risk to ask now rather den later wen tings were mre complicated..
i dunwan to get hurt all over again..

if my bestie cn stay strong over evryting dat has happen to her..
y nt me..
if she cn still stand on her two feet afer going thru everyting..
y nt me..

i noe im strong..
i jus hav to b patient

dats all everyone..
take care..
im off to work..
=)