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Wednesday, October 08, 2008 @ 2:01 PM

a few mre hours before im at my store cleaning things up before my boss wif her lugage( wic is small for a week plus trip) appear at the shop..

isit jus women's nature or wad?
sacrificing her love, pride n honour for the one she love?
y do i see it alwaes happening on tv..
n i thought..
nah! real life wer gt like dat..
but truth to b told..
its somewhat like dat in reality..

n i confess..
i am like dat..
mayb i watch too much tv shows laa..
aishah b firm abit cn wen it comes to matters of the heart?
dun delude urself or deceive urself into tinking that yes i love him..
cos mayb..
i have fallen in love..
but nt wif the person..
jus fallen in love with love itself..

s-e-v-e-n-t-e-e-n
i hav mre to life to discover..
y hurry..
spare me the pain n dissapointment..
cos at my age now..
everyone wans to enjoy life n jus play around..
dats y never ever take relationship seriously at a time like dis..
note t0 self: if ur nt ready to commit, don't
spare urself

i still hav my goals n dreams in life..
nt to forget my passion for kids..
i definitely wan to dedicate all the time i cn to help kids..

n i alwaes wonder..
y isit wen i go out to date or jus hang out wif ony one frens..
its a totally different experience..

at least i dun get the
"dun tell anyone bout today" statement wen i go out wif frens..

n dat left me wondering..
y the heck m i still living in my past wen fact is im oredie in my future?
im living a hell fun life now..
wif the company of my work colleagues hu jus simply make me laugh till my stomachhurts..
we n our mischief..runing ard..joking..treating the place like our very own playgorund..
wif the company of my sec schmates hu make my day simply jus by spending time tgether walking ard, chit-chatting, catching up..
wif the company of m bestie hu cn stand my crappiness n see me laugh n cry..
wif the company of my cuzzies hu share n understand what im going thru..
last but nt least..
wif the company of my family hu never fails to tease me, love me for hu i reli am..

my past= memories and lessons to b learn from..
im putting every bit of my past behind today..
whatever happens last time stays there..

dis doesnt mean i hav stop loving u..
i dun blame anyone..i dun hate anyone..
we learn from our mistakes..

how weird..
i dreamt of u again..
holding my hands..
telling me things r gonna b alrite..
encouraging me..
y wen i nid encouragement the most..
u appeared..

i often woke up in the middle of the night looking at my teddy..
n jus hugging it..
thx for ur companion all this while dear teddy..
n thks to u for giving me dis special teddy to me..